let it burn
appreciate
silence.
I sat alone. i watched attentively from a far. and why do i feel the urge to rush up to her and see whether she's alright or is she hurt when i saw her falling? i felt the anchor in my heart when my eyes witnessed that. the feeling of worries, uneasiness and distress was almost immediate. im puzzled. i dont know why did this happen? the whole world seem to have stopped and my eyes were only entirely for her. i havent felt that way for a long while. i had a smile and a giggle when she acts confused. at times, i wanted to see her badly. i dont know why. is this time for real? im just skeptical. doubtful. i dont want to be a fool again. to give in so much but ended up with nothing and still be hurted and broken. or find out that it was all a mistake. is this the void in me that i need to fill it up? make this clear. make this obvious. i wouldnt want to suffer over and over again. this anchor in my heart is sinking me. im already at the brim. almost drowning.
Spinning..
Puddle of Mudd - Blurry.
Friday, August 27, 2004