Her name kept running thru my mind over and over again. im overwhelmed by the thoughts of her. i cant get myself to sleep. i was awake. and when i am. she jus appear everywhere in my head. i couldnt stop myself from the thoughts of her. i didnt want to miss her intentionally. but somehow. the obscurity just bring her back to me. i was afraid to fall in love. due to those melancholy that i had experienced. i know melancholy knows no leap, no boundary, no limits. and i would be trapped. or maybe how ignorant she will be after knowing bout those stuff. i am fearful of rejection and the lovelorn and this inarticulate fear. i guess. im falling for her. but i think i have already fall for her. time and time again. her face emerged. the first thing i think of every morning is her. her pretty face and the sweet stuffs she said. and that sometimes make me puzzled whether its real or its jus misconception. i wouldnt let myself think the good way. that is she likes me a lil. i just dont know why. the hint hint she gives seem so real. so genuine. but me. i'll think otherwise. maybe like. its jus what a nice friend who say those things to perk you up. Please let those hints be real. Please dont let it be a defraud. I think of her when im down, demoralised. and i would smile and go on. she's my strength. without her, im weak. i dont feel myself. but when she's around. everything seem to go the right way. i hope, one day, this would become reality. that i know she likes me for who i am. and i like her with all my heart.. with no worries of any misery, doubts and our love. there wouldnt be goodbyes. jus love. and i wouldnt be so skeptical bout anything.
Spinning..
Jay Chou - Jian Dian Ai
Monday, September 20, 2004